Xeri and Rie

There was a time when I thought about dying

Xeri 01:13

There was a time when I thought about dying, because the flowers wilted at the side of the road. Trampled by man until it got no shape.

There was a time when I thought about dying, because the rain pours hard on my birthday. If I lie down beneath the cloudy sky, will it pelted through my soul?

Sour candy at the intersection, abandoned things by the roadside.

I warm myself up at this worned-out station, though I don't really feel like going anywhere.

However, today feels exactly like yesterday. If I don't change, tomorrow will still be the same. I know it will, I know it will.., yet still...

There was a time when I thought about dying, because I was nothing but an empty vessel.

And whenever someone cries because they’re not happy, I’m sure it’s because they really want to find happiness.

There was a time when I thought about dying, because my hairbands had snap.

I was never very good at tying them. Kind of like how I am with the ties between people.

There was a time when I thought about dying, because people wouldn’t stop pointing at me.

I got down on my knees on top of my bed, so that I could apologize to myself.

My night lamp casts a dim light. Sounds of interphone chimes, the traffic outdoor sounds the same as ever. The girl sits inside a birdcage, ears covered, not wanting to give a damn to the outside world.

I’m fighting an enemy that never exist.

After all life goal is meaningless anyway.

There was a time when I thought about dying, because everyone said I'm a cold person and didn’t have a heart.

And whenever someone cries longing for another’s love, it’s because they accidentally learned what the real thing feels like.

There was a time when I thought about dying, because you had to have such a dazzling smile.
And whenever someone can’t help but think about dying, I’m sure it’s because they’re trying a little too hard.

There was a time when I thought about dying. It must have been because I hadn’t met you yet.
And if people like you can exist in this world, then maybe.., I will like it a little after all.

If people like you are living in this world, then maybe.., it’s alright to hope a little too.

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End of a tale - In the midst of August

Rie 07:58

My tears are unstoppable, I want to see you.
Look! The ray of sunshine is just the same, just like those day.
Hey...I have to bid farewell soon, I will continue to live in the present without you by my side.

As you said "Hurry up, let's go!" You take hold of my hand, making me flustered as you dash off cheerily.
I've always been chasing after you, so I can only see your back, without knowing all the struggles that you have been hiding.

"I'm glad that we met", You said, with a voice that's as gentle as the wind. You turned around as I called out your name and gave me a smile that is both sad and beautiful.

In the midst of August.

I can't stop this tears.
You have always been beside me. But, all that's left are the nice warmth in the palms of my hands which you gave me.
Hey...Even though I know that you won't be there anymore, I still ended up calling your name, over and over.
Even though I was tightly grasping those hands to connect my feelings, but your voice always breaks my heart.
All the feelings that words cannot describe, I will keep them inside of me and live on.

"What's with that face, you are so not cute looking like that". You would scold me like that if you were to see me right now.
When I encounter obstacles and get hurt, I tend to get disheartened, but I have to keep on living.

There were wishes that weren't granted, things left unfulfilled. I had to overcome those countless frustrations. Even the scenery of this town has completely changed.
On the path that the two of us once walked together, I'm gazing into the sky, all alone by myself.

In the midst of August.

So that tears wouldn't overflow, I will always smile as I remember you. Maybe, I'm a bit sly.
Hey! I've become stronger since that day, or maybe, I haven't at all. The wind blows gently.

Goodbye.

I won't forget your love.

My tears are unstoppable, I guess I won't be able to meet you anymore. Those days we spent together, are changing into distant ray.
But still...I have to go! Even if you are not here, I'll continue to gaze at tomorrow.

I can't stop these tears.
I loved you...forever.
No matter how many times August comes, I'll never forget every single thing.
Hey! I bid you farewell.
I will continue to live in the present without you by my side.